When I Feel Weak...

Through all the tough circumstances in my life, there have been many moments in those times when I felt weak & didn't have the strength or will to carry on. There have been times were I have felt like I have let people down, the biggest times I feel guilty of that is about the babies. I just have a sense of feeling like a failure, like I failed to give JC his babies, that I failed my family in bringing them a new member of the family. Some days these thoughts weigh me down more then they should, but what I know is that I have a God that gives me the strength I need to carry on when times get tough.

Trust in the Lord forever, for the Lord God is an everlasting rock. Isaiah 26:4

I love you, O Lord, my strength. Psalms 18:1

The Lord is my strength and my song; he has become my salvation. 
Psalms 118:14

Seek the Lord and his strength; seek his presence continually. 
1 Chronicles 16:11 

I am so thankful to have such a loving God who gives me the strength I need to get through those tough days. Lately those tough days have been centered around losing weight and eating healthier. We just got on a new Christian based health insurance (praise God that we now have new insurance!) we are paying extra a month for me to work with a health coach, so I can lose weight. I need to lose 24 pounds to be considered a healthy weight (which is perfect because that's the amount I wanted to get down to before I get pregnant again) I just need to keep reminding myself that it's going to take time. I'm starting a workout routine this week (I worked out last week, but not super intense) so I'm excited for that and we have been taking the dogs on a walk everyday! I have such a sweet tooth and that's what will be the hard part for me, I don't mind sweating and working out! 

In other news, we are settling right in here and enjoying our church family! I got a pedicure yesterday and it felt SO nice, I had a girls day with some of my already BFF's here in the Glades!! JC has been broken into the Florida sun yesterday and got a nice burn (I mean sun tan... that is red!) when we were at a soccer game for about an hour and a half! We have youth group in a bit and I'm just enjoying the quite right now. Here are some things I'm looking forward to this month...

1.) Starting my workout routine
2.) Baking for the first time in our new home
3.) Getting a few more pieces of furniture that we need
4.) Decorating our house to make it feel more homey 
5.) Seeing my hubby lead worship on Sundays
6.) Trying some new cupcake recipes
7.) Getting to know people here
8.) Hopefully making a trip to the beach
9.) Reminding myself that God doesn't make junk, especially on those tough days.
10.) Getting into a routine again and figuring out our new schedule in our new life here! 

Number 9 isn't really something I'm looking forward to, but more of something I need to do more often! Lots of things to look forward to in the month to come, hope you are finding fun things to look forward to this month as well!! Didn't take too many pics this week, but here are a few!

XOXO Bee

Wall decoration Barber style... JC has a music room now!
Something he has wanted for awhile! 

Zoey's new favorite spot, waiting at the back door for daddy!

I was able to FaceTime with Shannon and little Miss. Ryleigh this week!
It made my day for sure! 

Truth! 

A pic from the nail salon we went to yesterday! 

Never would have made it though those times without him.