Monday, October 28, 2013


Well today went a lot different that I had planned, with a trip to the hospital for a non stress test on baby B. She seemed to be moving less then usually, great news was that they found her heartbeat right away, she passed her test with flying colors and everything is fine with her! We also got to hear her have hiccups on the monitor right before the nurse took them off, it was pretty cute!  Praise the Lord that she is fine!!! I received a call from the OB specialist before we went to the hospital telling me that I do in fact have gestational diabetes and I have a mild case of preeclampsia…. this news hit me hard! 
The tears began to fall and the worries about our baby became overwhelming. I don't know much about preeclampsia, but I know that it can be dangerous for both the baby and I. So there are many high risks that that go with preeclampsia. I'm just trying not to focus on the really scary possibilities, and just focus on staying relaxed, calm and keeping her in the oven for as long as possible! After seeing my doctor today he ordered me to go on bed rest, so I'm limited on what I can do now. But he did say that I can still go on walks with JC and the pups, he doesn't want me to just lay there I need to get up and move and get my circulation going. I'm fine with that, I will do anything I can to make sure we bring this baby girl home! Just praying now that we can keep my blood pressure low at least until December rolls around… we don't want her coming out too early! 
Just need less to say today was a very overwhelming day overall. SO thankful that our baby is ok, I had a feeling going to the hospital today that she was going to be fine and that we would be released… thank goodness that was the case today. I would give anything to just have a normal pregnancy… I knew this one was going too smoothly! We have an appointment with the OB specialist on Thursday to discuss how to monitor both the gestational and the preeclampsia together. Really wish we didn't have to head back there, but thankful there is a specialist for us to see. 
The Devil has really been trying to get into my head over the last week, it was so overwhelming the other night that I went to bed crying because the baby wasn't moving as much. I just took a deep breath and prayed that the Lord would shelter me from the Devil and for the baby to move. Shortly after laying down, the baby started squirming around! I have an overwhelming feeling that we will be bringing this baby home… just not too excited about the possibility of her coming super early and the possibility of her having to stay at the hospital. Just praying that she keeps growing strong and healthy, so that when she does come out that she is healthy! 
With all of our stuff going on today, my heart wishes we could be in NH with our nephew Cameron. Cameron was diagnosed with epilepsy when he was a baby and has since continued to have seizures, he is now three years old. He will be going into brain surgery on Wednesday where they will be removing three sections of his brain in hopes to cure his seizures. There is a 50/50 chance that the surgery will be a success. So I just ask you, my friends to please keep Cameron and his parents Cassie and Shawn in your prayers this week as they face this surgery. 
At the end of today, I am thankful for a healthy baby and for a strong husband who yet again stood by my side again today while we faced the unknown with yet another one of our sweet babes! I am thankful for good doctors and for a God who I know has my back and will bring this baby into the world when he sees fit! So that's my update on Baby B and I! I hope your Monday was less stressful then ours… blessings on your week my friends! 

Monday, October 21, 2013

28 Weeks!

Well we have reached 28 weeks and are now in the final trimester with our little miss!! I have been feeling good, definitely feeling more pregnant it's getting harder to get in and out of bed now! Haha! We had a doctor's appointment and baby is looking good and her heart rate was good... not so good was my blood pressure. So now I have to collect my urine for 24 hours so they can check for protein in it, if I have protein in my urine  then I have pre clampsia and they need to watch me very closely. I had to do this 24 hour collection with Maggie, so it's nothing new to me. Praying that I don't have pre clampsia, but if I do I know God will take care of me and the baby. Tomorrow I have my 3 hour glucose test, not looking forward to that... hoping I won't get too bored! When we talked to the doctor today he said that he would be shocked if I carried the baby into January, so it seems like we will be meeting our little girl sooner then we thought! I'm ok with her coming early, as long as she is healthy and we get to bring her home!! 
After our appointment today, I felt a little on edge just with the new information we got. However I am very thankful for doctors who are watching me and baby closely and running test necessary to make sure everything is ok. Through this pregnancy I have tried to just fully rely on God and know that he is in control, still trusting him and lifting my worries up to him! 

And so, Lord, where do I put my hope? My only hope is in you. Psalms 39:7

We put our hope in the Lord. He is our help and our shield. Psalms 33:20

Here are some pics from life recently! We took in a little kitty for a few days, but brought him to a shelter today and praying he finds a happy home!! Blessings on your week friends!

We have started to put the dogs in their kennels at night
in preparation for baby... Zeke got bored and destroyed his bed! 

me with little mr.kitty

Beautiful angel rays driving home the other day! Can't
help but think of our babies & my mama
when I see these! 

So tiny and sweet! 

Zeke with his tiny little kitty! He loved licking him! 

Baby girl and I! Hooray for being in the final trimester! 

Thursday, October 17, 2013

Moving Forward.

As we prepared to make our move from MN to FL in February this year, we had to make some tough calls with what to do with all of the baby stuff/ Maggie's things. Knowing that I wanted to get pregnant again but not anytime soon, we decided to donate almost all of her things to a church in International Falls that brings things to an Indian tribe in Canada that are very limited in the things they can afford/ have access to. They were very thankful and we felt good donating her things to people who are truly in need. As I saw all the things again that people bought her, I was overcome by how much people had love and still love our little girl that we were unable to meet. 
I find it to be such a fine line to hold on to her memory and letting go at the same time. The things we kept will remind us of our first born baby and it will be a way for her to live on. We gave the nursery to Brad & Whitney who are expecting their little girl any day now (this furniture was given to us by Brian & Shannon) so we were happy to keep it in the family. We have a few more things at my dad's house and hopefully we will eventually get them down here, but for the most part we registered for all new things at Target & on Amazon (I found a number of things to be cheaper on Amazon then other stores!) .
I want her nursery to be her own, that being said I don't mind there being a few things in her room that were in Maggie's. Her nursery scheme is different then Maggie's was and will have a different feel to it. We have a few names in mind, but are keeping them secret and won't be naming her until we meet her. We decided to do this because last time everyone knew Maggie's name and I wanted to make this experience different. When you have gone through an entire pregnancy and lose the baby at the very end, you tend to rethink how you approached things and want to things differently. We'll have her room ready for her to come home to, but not as early as we did with Maggie. I just can't go that long having the room sit there waiting for her like we did with Maggie.
As the time goes on and meeting this baby girl gets closer & closer I am constantly reminded of how different this pregnancy is and how different this baby is even in the womb. I can tell she has a different personality than Maggie, even without meeting her yet! Funny how well you get to know your baby in the womb, before they even enter this world! 
My first one hour glucose test came back high, so I need to take the three hour test next week... so I'm betting that I have gestational diabetes again with this pregnancy. The plus side is that I know how to manage it, the down side is how expensive it is and how much work it is! I continue to trust God with this pregnancy and this baby and know that he will provide what we need and he will take care of us! Hard to believe we are half way through October and I am almost in the third trimester! Praise God for an easy pregnancy thus far! Here are some pics from the last few weeks, hope you are all having a great week and that you have a blessed weekend!! 


Desiring to have a daily hungry for God's word! 

Happy Boy with his big rope toy!

My BFF Myranda & I on my Birthday! 

Out to dinner with my love for my Birthday! 

Thankful for my sweet baby girl! 

Carrot Cake Cupcake with cheese cream frosting!
Love fall baking! 

Zoey is pumped about the Red Sox being in the play offs! 

Groovy Glasses Night last night at AWANA! 

Tuesday, October 1, 2013

Happy October!

October is my favorite month for many reasons, it's the beginning of the fall season, this means changing of wardrobe to scarfs & boots, and it's my Birthday month! Here are somethings I'm looking forward to this October!
xoxo Bee

*Celebrating my Birthday on Friday with my love
*A lot of my close friends Birthdays are this month & my SIL Whitney's
*Another October Birthday being added this year... my niece will make her arrival this month!!
*Going on a fall retreat with the teens & women ministry
*Making my own little Halloween costume that suits my growing belly!
*Our doctor appointment at the end of the moth to check on little miss
*Doing Trunk or Treat at church for Halloween!
*Registering for Baby B
*Working on craft projects for Baby B's room
*Enjoying time with my love!