Saturday, March 30, 2013

Picture Perfect.

Looking back on this month I realized I haven't been a very good blogger & I apologize for that... life has been a little crazy lately with our big move and all. And to be totally honest it's been a little tough adjusting, but I feel like I'm getting into the swing of things and really starting to enjoy it here in FL! We are enjoying eating healthier, taking the dogs on walks almost everyday, and I am loving working out again and I am proud to say that over the past two weeks I have lost 5 lbs. I know it doesn't sound like much but it's a start and I only have 20 more to go!! I pray that you are all having a wonderful Easter weekend and that you are remembering the reason for the Season and all that God sacrificed for us!! Enjoy some pics of the last couple of weeks!!


My new "tool" box for all my cake decorating stuff

Enjoy some Jamba Juice & my new shades!

First cake I decorated... I think it came out ok!

Made this adorable piggy cake with some of my favorite girls last

Zoey passed out!

Loving seeing him so excited about his new ministries
I don't know what I did to deserve an amazing
man like him!! 

As of late this girl has been eating salad pretty much every day!

Got some new running shoes, and I'm in love with them!!

A great reminder! 

Learned some pretty flower technics in class on Tuesday! 

I love this! 

God's beauty sounds us! 

Zeke supervising JC as he puts in the new dishwasher! 

Angel rays! 

I have the best husband who not only cooks for me,
but makes sure we stick to my super healthy diet!
I have learned to enjoy fish now!! 

Great way to look at things, on those days where it
seems like nothing is going right! 

Jc cheating on our pups with our friend's doggy Sonny! 

Got my SIL's wedding invite this week! Excited to
celebrate with them in June!! :)

We are enjoying the Florida weather and scenery!! I think we have adapted quit well!!

Tuesday, March 19, 2013


The past week was a challenging week both emotionally & spiritually. As JC began to work on our taxes, he came across a section asking about dependents... and we were told that even if Maggie had passed away we still might be able to claim her. So he starting making phone calls to people he needed to talk to, after a few days of getting frustrated and getting the run around we found out that Maggie was considered a stillborn. Now these may not seem like a big deal to you, but it was and still is to us. Because she was considered a stillborn is why we didn't receive any paperwork on her (birth & death certificate) We were told by our doctors at the time I was still in the hospital that she was said to be alive when she was delivered. So to find out a little over a year later that was not alive when she was delivered just brought tears, heartache & pain to both JC and I. It's like living that horrible day all over again. We were just mostly frustrated that we were not told any of this information until we made the effort to find out over a year later.

As I read through my devotional last week one of the scriptures that struck home for me was this one...

But if we are to share his Glory, we must also share his sufferings. Yet what we suffer now is nothing compared to the Glory he will give us later. Romans 8:18

You will see your suffering as a severe mercy that keeps you from falling more deeply in love with the comforts, securities, and pleasures of this world so you can anticipate more fully a rich and rewarding inheritance in the next. 
~Nancy Guthrie

I don't know about you but that sure is comforting to me! To know that my suffering here on earth is not done in vein but to further God's kingdom & to be rewarded in Heaven is a great comfort to me! Just some words for thought! I'm getting ready to head out for my second week of cake decorating class soon & looking forward to that!! Here are a few pics from this last week! I hope you are having a blessed week so far!! 


The beautiful sunset on Sunday night! 
Zoey standing by my side as I worked out... such a good pup! 

My handiwork from my first cake decorating class! 

Zeke being a yoga dog! 

No, it's not a tornado... this is what it looks like when
they burn sugar cane in Belle Glade! 

Zoey being pathetic because she was kept out of the
living room while I worked out! 

How I felt pretty much all last week! 

Some more encouraging words in my devo about storing
our treasures in Heaven not on earth! 

My sweet boys! I just love them!! 

My cheery nail color for this week! 

Monday, March 11, 2013

Finding My Place...

It's a very curious and unsettling feeling when you don't know where your place is within your own life. Since we have arrived in FL I have been feeling a little loss and unsure of what my new "role" is in this new chapter of our life. When we first were talking about the possibility of us moving here I was suppose to be working on growing a human being... so now where does this leave me. The only thing that seems routine or scheduled are my morning work outs, which I started doing a week ago. 

The past year of my life all I had on my mind was getting pregnant, that's still on my mind but not as much as it was in the past. My desire to be a mother is still very strong, but I want to get to a healthier weight and I need to give my body and emotions a break from being pregnant and all the heartache that has come with both of my pregnancies. Part of me is also hoping that the next pregnancy will be a surprise so I don't have to make the conscious decision to get pregnant. I have been seeing a lot of my friends having their babies, and seeing other pregnancies progress... I honestly couldn't be more excited for them! At the same time it makes my heart sad knowing that I would be about 28 weeks along with baby number 2 right now. I can only pray that God continues to work on my heart and healing it. I know that he is working on the fear I have of losing another baby, but that is defiantly still in the process. 

I guess what I am trying to get at is that I feel like my life is in limbo... waiting to lose weight, waiting for the right time to get pregnant, waiting to find a job. But I don't want to be living my life like it is in limbo, so not the way it is meant to be! So for now I guess all I can really do is keep my faith in God and that he will reveal all things in his timing. So I will be here waiting and praying and putting all my faith (which is all I feel like I have right now) in the one who knows my heart best. I pray that you are finding and holding onto your faith in God in your own lives right now!

"I am leaving you with a gift- peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don't be troubled or afraid." John 14:27


Sunday, March 3, 2013

When I Feel Weak...

Through all the tough circumstances in my life, there have been many moments in those times when I felt weak & didn't have the strength or will to carry on. There have been times were I have felt like I have let people down, the biggest times I feel guilty of that is about the babies. I just have a sense of feeling like a failure, like I failed to give JC his babies, that I failed my family in bringing them a new member of the family. Some days these thoughts weigh me down more then they should, but what I know is that I have a God that gives me the strength I need to carry on when times get tough.

Trust in the Lord forever, for the Lord God is an everlasting rock. Isaiah 26:4

I love you, O Lord, my strength. Psalms 18:1

The Lord is my strength and my song; he has become my salvation. 
Psalms 118:14

Seek the Lord and his strength; seek his presence continually. 
1 Chronicles 16:11 

I am so thankful to have such a loving God who gives me the strength I need to get through those tough days. Lately those tough days have been centered around losing weight and eating healthier. We just got on a new Christian based health insurance (praise God that we now have new insurance!) we are paying extra a month for me to work with a health coach, so I can lose weight. I need to lose 24 pounds to be considered a healthy weight (which is perfect because that's the amount I wanted to get down to before I get pregnant again) I just need to keep reminding myself that it's going to take time. I'm starting a workout routine this week (I worked out last week, but not super intense) so I'm excited for that and we have been taking the dogs on a walk everyday! I have such a sweet tooth and that's what will be the hard part for me, I don't mind sweating and working out! 

In other news, we are settling right in here and enjoying our church family! I got a pedicure yesterday and it felt SO nice, I had a girls day with some of my already BFF's here in the Glades!! JC has been broken into the Florida sun yesterday and got a nice burn (I mean sun tan... that is red!) when we were at a soccer game for about an hour and a half! We have youth group in a bit and I'm just enjoying the quite right now. Here are some things I'm looking forward to this month...

1.) Starting my workout routine
2.) Baking for the first time in our new home
3.) Getting a few more pieces of furniture that we need
4.) Decorating our house to make it feel more homey 
5.) Seeing my hubby lead worship on Sundays
6.) Trying some new cupcake recipes
7.) Getting to know people here
8.) Hopefully making a trip to the beach
9.) Reminding myself that God doesn't make junk, especially on those tough days.
10.) Getting into a routine again and figuring out our new schedule in our new life here! 

Number 9 isn't really something I'm looking forward to, but more of something I need to do more often! Lots of things to look forward to in the month to come, hope you are finding fun things to look forward to this month as well!! Didn't take too many pics this week, but here are a few!


Wall decoration Barber style... JC has a music room now!
Something he has wanted for awhile! 

Zoey's new favorite spot, waiting at the back door for daddy!

I was able to FaceTime with Shannon and little Miss. Ryleigh this week!
It made my day for sure! 


A pic from the nail salon we went to yesterday! 

Never would have made it though those times without him.