Saturday, April 20, 2013

Filling the Void...

When you lose something that is dear and precious to you, you tend to have a void that is left empty. We have lost more then one precious someones over the last 3 years of our lives, being left with numerous voids in our lives. Many times we fill our voids with buying things it seems to help fill that void, but only temporarily. Zeke was our "void filler" after we lost Maggie Grace and he continues to be a blessing to us, but a dog is not the same as a child...

Over the last few months as I have been healing physically & emotionally God has been teaching me many things about myself and the desires of my heart. I can whole heartily say that I am SO beyond ready for something more in our lives, I long for the day that JC and I can share our life and our love with a precious child of our own! When we were pregnant with Maggie Grace, I was excited to be having a baby but didn't have the longing for something more in our lives the way I do now! Most likely because we hadn't even been married a year yet at that point!

I feel as though I am finally coming back into my own in over 3 years! It's like a dark cloud has lifted over my heavy heart and the sun is finally shining on my face (figuratively and literally, it helps being in sunny FL!) God has been moving in my heart in big ways and slowly healing my hurt heart and my fears that come with losing two babies. My prayers have been for God to fully restore my trust and faith in him, though I have had that all along those two things have taken radical shaken over that past few years!

Life has been quit the adventure the last 3 years, one that has been; gloomy, scary, painful, challenging & absolutely life changing. I am so thankful for this time of healing and for what God is doing in my life, marriage, and my heart. Since we have been in FL JC and I have experienced a greater love and understanding of one another, it feels good to being doing life together while we heal!

I guess what I am trying to get at is that I feel that I am in a good place right now & have seen how God has been working through out all the pain in my life. I'm at that point of being able to look back with out too much pain and see how God has worked things for the Good! A refreshing feeling!

My prayer for you today is that you are finding God's will for your life and that he is showing you the desires of your heart!!

And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose. Romans 8:28

Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see. Hebrews 11:1


Angel wing clouds! God is everywhere we look! 

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