Saturday, September 28, 2013

Faith VS Doubt

Faith VS Doubt this is what I have been struggling with since becoming pregnant this time around. Most days I am able to stay calm and trust in God and have faith that everything is going to be ok. And then there are those days when the baby isn't moving quit as much and I begin to doubt and loss faith. On those days I really dislike the feeling that I have inside, it's like I'm in conflict with myself... because I know I should/ need to just trust God and that everything will be ok. It's been the biggest struggle, hurdle this pregnancy  I'm finding ways to keep myself calm and remind myself that God wants to bless me with good things. 
The idea of being blessed with good things seem a little foreign to me (and JC) not to say that we haven't been blessed with good things the last three years, but honestly we have had negative and really heartbreaking things happen to us. So it feels a bit strange to have things going well for a change, very thankful that they are but I feel like part of me is just waiting for something to go wrong. 
God has given me a couple really cool "visions" since I have been pregnant. When happened while I was in church and probably only about 10 or 13 weeks along and I just had this overwhelming sense of a baby laying on my chest with dark hair and it was our baby. Another one was I got up early in the morning (the day of our ultrasound to find out the gender) at 18 weeks and I laid back down in bed closed my eyes and a sleeping baby's face popped into my head. Both of these "visions" brought me great comfort that we will be bringing this baby home with us! 
So as I sit here 25 weeks pregnant, I'm learning to leave this baby in God's hands trusting that we will bring this baby home. Some days are easier than others, but hey that's what having faith in God calls us to do. It calls us to full heartily leave our concerns in his hands and trust that he has got it all covered! JC did a talk this past Thursday to the teens about having faith and trusting God, and it spoke right to my heart and how I have been feeling. The verse he did the talk on was...

Now Faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see. Hebrews 11:1

Reading my devo yesterday I found another great scripture for faith.

And it is impossible to please God without faith. Anyone who wants to come to him must believe that God exists and that he rewards those who sincerely seek him. Hebrews 11:6

So I am choosing to trust and put my faith fully in God and that this baby is coming home with us! As the weeks go by the more excited I am getting about being a mommy and being able to care for her! 


I love my boys so much! 

Baby B is getting bigger & we have 100 days left
until D day! She will be delivered 5 days early! 

This is a prayer that I actually found on Pinterest, I try to say
it everyday when I put lotion on my belly.

Monday, September 23, 2013

24 weeks + Life as of Lately

Well we are at the 24 week (6 month) mark and I am feeling all that much pregnant, but feeling good! We had a doctor appointment today and the doctor said the baby is growing beautifully, it's always reassuring hearing that sweet little heartbeat every time! She is getting bigger and her kicks are become stronger, JC has been able to feel her kick once! 
At this point she is a little over a pound and about a foot long, around the size of an ear of corn. My blood pressure is still good (PTL) and in two weeks I will be going in for my glucose test to see if I have gestational diabetes. Praying that I don't have that this time around (I had GD with Maggie) I can deal with changing my diet but poking my finger 3 to 4 times a day for over two months gets old & expensive! I'm thinking I won't have it this time because this pregnancy has been so different from the others, but prayers are always welcomed! 
On the life front of things, we have been very busy getting ministry stuff kicked off and working on the Teen room, giving them a place to call their own! We went to Ft. Myers last week for three days for the Christian & Missionary Alliance district conference. It was good to get away and be surrounded by other people in ministry who are also passionate about reaching young people! Knowing that our time as just JC and I will be coming to an end it is nice for us to spend time with just the two of us! 
We have started to read a Psalm a night to our little girl at bed time and praying for her every night and that she grows up with a heart that seeks after God! I made a canvas for her room & one for one of my best friends little girl that was just born on Friday! I'm finding that doing crafts are a great stress reliever for me, and I truly enjoy making things for other people! I'm hoping to get a sewing machine soon, so I can start making things for her crib/ her room. 
Here are some pics to catch you up on our life this past month! Blessings on your week my friends!! 


Cuddle/ nap time with my baby boy! 

Pretty fall flowers! 

Canvas I did for my Friend's little girl,
love how this came out! 

Canvas for baby B's room! 

Baby girl's first swim suit!

Was asked for a new belly pic a couple weeks ago! 

Baked banana cupcakes with cinnamon cream cheese
frosting for the teens, they loved them! 

A taste of our little get away!

So thankful for a husband who is truly my best friend, love of my life
and takes such good care of me especially when I'm pregnant!!

Being a former ballerina myself, I couldn't
pass up this sweet outfit for our little girl! 

My sweet Zoey girl, just love her sweet face! 

Hit 24 weeks on Saturday &  celebrated by going to
a country concert with my bff!
Trying to dress cute when you're prego can be a challenge...

Love this lady SO much! 

We got to see Deirks Bentley & Miranda Lambert, great show,
wonderful company, & of course great country music! 

Sunday, September 8, 2013

A Prayer for Today.

Spirit of the Lord, keep working within me and making me more and more like Jesus. I'm not content to keep seeing the same old me in the mirror. I want to reflect the glory of the Lord by becoming more and more like Jesus. ~ Nancy Guthrie

So all of us who have had that veil removed can see and reflect the glory of the Lord. And the Lord who is the Spirit makes us more and more like him as we are changed into his glorious image. 
2 Corinthians 3:18

Don't you want this too? I sure do, I want to be ever changing day to day to better reflect my Lord and who he is. I know personally I need to work on becoming less selfish and truly giving my all when it come to ministries I am involved in! Take a look at yourself in the mirror today (I know it can be tough & hard to do) see what you may need to work on to become more like Jesus! Blessings to you my friends on this beautiful Sunday!


Sunday, September 1, 2013

Happy September!

As September rolls in I can't help but miss the excitement of fall in the North! Fall is my absolute favorite season of all and this will be the first year ever that I will not be in a place where temps get significantly cooler and the leaves change color. I can still drink pumpkin drinks, bake pumpkin bread and buy pumpkin scented candles!! I am excited to see what this fall holds for us, here are a few things I'm looking forward to...

* Youth group getting started & having our kickoff
* For AWANA to start for the younger kids
* Using my new camera to capture memories
* Watching my belly grow and feeling this baby kick even more!
* Excited to go to Fort Myers for district conference for a few days
* Baking some of my favorite fall goodies
* Helping with the school musical
* Spending time with my love
* Doing crafts for our baby's room & for other people's babies
* Going for walks with the pups

I hope you have a lot to look forward to this month also! Blessings on your week friends!