Monday, February 3, 2014

Depression- The Fight, The Struggle.

I feel as though it is time I share where I am right now in life… fighting depression. You would think that after having my beautiful baby girl I would be so happy beyond words, yet here I sit fighting one of the hardest battles I have ever faced. The enemy (the devil) is playing mind games with me and whispering lies in my ear, which I know are lies but tend to sound like truth sometimes. I am on medication now and this has helped quit a bit and I am
The little person who makes getting out of bed so much easier,
knowing she needs me is what keeps me going
and keeps me fighting!! 
having better days more then I am having bad days. Yet it is still a daily struggle, but one that I am walking with with my God… the only one who knows all the thoughts I am struggling with and the only one who can be my strength, my shield and my savior! 

Since this battle has started God has revealed things to me, such as how important it is to protect your mind so that the enemy doesn't get in and whisper those lies and how much I need him and need to rely on him. Not just every once in awhile, but daily I need to rely on Him and all he has to offer! I have dove into my Bible and reading helpful devotional and books that have been so helpful in my search to find true happiness again. I am learning about my God and about myself through this journey and as much as I want to be all better right now, I know it will take time and healing of many emotional scars that I am working through with a Christian therapist. His mercies are new everyday and that is so refreshing to know. I have a God who loves me, even when I don't feel like I am enough… He loves me for all that I am! Many nights especially the hard ones I in-vision myself falling asleep curled up in my saviors hand and being cradled in his loving embrace, how comforting that thought is to me. 
I would like to share some of the scripture that has been helping me everyday, I'm working on memorizing them so I can just speak them out loud whenever I need them! Please know that if you are struggling with depression, you are not alone! Get help and reach out to people around you, talk out how you are feeling, the thoughts you are having, journal and be encouraged to know that you have a God who loves you and wants you to be healed and live with pure JOY in your heart! 

Blessings to you my friends,

Not by might, nor by power, but by my spirit. 
Zechariah 4:6

Don't worry about anything instead pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. If you do this, you will experience God's peace, which is far more wonderful than the human mind can understand. His peace will guard your hearts & minds as you live in Christ Jesus. Fix your thoughts on what is true, honorable, and right. Think about things that are pure and lovely and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise. 
Philippians 4:6-8

For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but power, and of love, and a sound mind. 
2 Timothy 1:7

The Lord is my strength, my shield from every danger. I trust him with all my heart. He helps me, and my heart is filled with Joy. I burst out in songs of thanksgiving. 
Psalm 28:7

So don't worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring it's own worries. Today's troubles is enough for today.
Matthew 6:34

But when I'm afraid, I put my trust in you.
Psalm 56:3

But let all who take refuge in you be glad; let them ever sing for joy. Spread your protection over them, that those who love your name may rejoice  in you. Surely, Lord, you bless the righteous; you surround them with your favor as with a shield. 
Psalm 5:11-12

1 comment:

  1. Breann, thank you for sharing your heart. After having a baby, that depression is so hard and real. Just know that this will pass. You are doing everything that you need to do; mostly trusting in the Lord. I had some depression after Jason was born but at that time did not realize it was depression. All I could think was how can I feel this way with a beautiful baby in our lives. Hormones finally corrected themselves and I was better. I wish I had done what you are doing. There is a Bible verse that I have claimed as mine to get me through the hard times these last few years; Isaiah 41:10." Do not fear for I am with you. Do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." I am very proud of you and love you. You have grown into a wonderful person; the daughter Maggie would be so proud of. Just remember that this too shall pass so hang on to Jesus.