It's a Beeautiful Life: A Desire for More...

Photo Credit to She Reads Truth

Do you ever have those days where you wake up and think "is this it, this is all life is about... wake up, go to work (and not get paid enough money for how hard you work), come home go to sleep and get up to do all over again the next day. I have been struggling a lot lately with my call in life, the move to MN has been a very difficult one for me. I don't know why I thought we would get here and everything would be perfect, it has been very hard, money is super tight because both JC and I weren't working for 2.5 weeks, we are paying a lot just in gas money to get to work (we both have about a 45 minute commute to duluth) getting things switched over to MN (like our WIC & SNAP stuff) have been stressful only to find out we don't qualify for any assistance. We do qualify for state health insurance, which is great!

With all that being said guess what? God had provided exactly what we needed when we needed it. We have a roof over our heads and have been able to pay rent even with lack of funds, sure we have very little in our checking account until JC gets paid on Friday but we didn't overdraft our account! We have food to feed the kids and clothes on our backs, beds to sleep in. Life is hard right now, but God is meeting us right where we are, he is listening to our cries and our stresses. JC has not been enjoying his job at Volkswagen (he is sitting behind a desk, working in the parts department and not working with his hands) so God opened up a new job possibility right
here in town for him... he turned in his application yesterday! So we are praying that if its in God's plan for that job to work out for him! My new Walgreens store has been an adjustment and I've been struggling with different things when it comes to my job.

I have this craving to do more with my life and my time, what that looks like I'm not sure... but my God knows how he is going to use me and I need to just put my trust in Him and His plan. But boy is that easier said than done, I have a desire to be a resource for women, to be an encourager, to be a sister in the tough times because I have been there. So I will just continue to pray about Him using me until he makes it evident on what he wants me to do.
I have learned lately that life is both dark and light at once... life will always have its hard and really dark times but we need to focus on the light in the darkness (so much harder to do at times than other) God is our light (or star) in the dark night sky... all we have to do is look UP!

So I guess what I'm saying friends is that life is hard and we may be doubting what we are here on this earth for, but God has our back and HE knows the plan so we need to TRUST in Him! This is something I am constantly working on myself especially as of lately!
Blessings on your week!

XOXO Bee